dosa tahun ini

2012 is approaching
bila nak fikir-fikir balik... tahun 2011 ada terlalu banyak kenangan yang sukar dilupakan
[drama queen]

banyak nye dosa tahun nih!!
dosa yang tak patut buat pun ade! !@#$%^&*

the above video slightly similar with my stories...
slight-ly ok!! bukannye total-ly...
masyaallah... banyak betul dosa dah buat tahun nih

- warna kan rambut [walaupun tahu tak boleh kaler rambut tapi still buat]
- gunting rambut kat kedai cina pastu ade plak laki [ i felt slightly stupid when i saw the man standing there menunggu customer. free-free jek die tgk rambut aku]
- rebond rambut [ yang ni dosa jugak kot sebab mengubah ciptaan tuhan] but still buat!
- kadang-kadang tinggal solat.. especially subuh. and kadang2 tak qada' pun solat yang kena tinggal tuh
- banyak mengumpat. syok betul bile cakap pasal orang ni kan. rasa macam tak boleh nak stop
- i've wasted the opportunity that God gave me this semester. huh! i cant reverse the time can i?
- watch too much porn movies. hey! nak tgk cerita sikit ade part nampak lurah dada. stupido!
- imagine if i have boyfriends. [tak boleh blah punye ayat]

ok enough is enough
segan pulak bile tunjuk pekong di dada nih.
2012. tolong jangan kiamat lagi.

suddenly want to go to japan

dear bloggy,,,
i dont know why
suddenly aku nak pergi jepun like desperately want to go there.

ada apa dengan jepun???
well, it is the dream place of mine since i was like 10 years old.
seriously nak pergi sana

mula2 tuh i thought of working after graduation...
but i think let me further my master while i still can learn and study at this young age,
maybe in japan. who knows?

hik... i am not satisfied with my results, jauh lagi nak be proud of it. no!
but perhaps. this semester i can be new like my new hope of going to japan.

exam and pleasure time

the first moment i am into this bloggy thing mesti jek aku sebuk dengan exam la...
baru lepas handle event la...

hahahaa...
i dunno... life is life...
and definitely life is not that easy,,
i need to jaga semua hati yang berada di sekelililing aku
that's hard! i tell you.. definitely hard!!

crazy stuff done by crazy people...
i cant live inside this world just by myself..

ok.. i love this song!!
charice aka sunshine corazon sang this song in glee!!
ALL BY MYSELF by eric carmen!
there...there,,, dah ade lirik dah pun... just nyanyi jek!!
and u will be mesmerized by the lyrics and his voice of course!!

huuuuuuu... life is simple if u make it simple
i wish i can make my life simple... hermm!

kuca kuci... a word for myself : DO YOUR BEST, GOD WILL DO THE REST

freedom

the new video from enche' maher zain...
everyone needs their freedom
everyone wants to be free!!

May Allah Bless us.. insyaallah

ujian

dear bloggie...
i have so many ujian lately...

not the paper -exam- on sheet...
ade lar jugak midterm....and quizzes...

but this is more on perasaaan and hati and jiwa..
God give me this ujian as a punishment for all my wrong doing maybe...

i have no clues and no ideas that it will be like this...
jangan salahkan aku kalau lepas ni
aku jadik lain...

no more mr nice guy...
no more old kuca kuci...
no more me!!
i will be much different....

duduk rumah

ola bloggy
ok, sekarang dah xde gambar nak tunjuk sebab line brodben lambat giler nak upload makanya aku  just tyoe my own feeling here..


while other people having their own time HAVING FUN
me?
i was spending my time at home..doing what?? TV TV TV TV TV AND TV
tu jek yang aku boleh fikir for the time being or maybe tu jek yang aku boleh buat while i am at home...


sementara my other frens or my other family members buat sesuatu yg incredible kat luar sana.. for instance... keluar jogging, amek2 gambar... holidays kat luar negara...
me? i am stuck in my own house
or i rather say glued in front of the tv


wahhh,, betapa adventurous nye aku nih...
hey hey... watching tv also beneficial ok!!
it is sooo true.....hahahaha
say who?? kata aku laaa


ohhhh nak kata bosan duk umah ni... tak jugak sebab it was my choice actually... aku yang tak nak keluar.. betul x?? hemmm.... what eva!!! malas rasanya...
and and.. kawan2 aku pun jenis yang tak kuar rumah... so, what the heck??
aku berkawan dengan orang yang melekat kat rumah...so am i....
duk rumah goyang kaki.... one after another tv and then tv


sape suro astro tu ade byk sgt channels... lepas satu satu... kalau iklan boleh bukak citer lain...
kalau movie xbest i have 2 other channels that i can choose from...
wow heaven!! hahahahahaaa


macam mana laaa badan xgemuk...
erghhhh.... that is sooo not good!! giler!!!
sekarang dah rasa sesak nafas...hahaha...
adakah itu suatu petanda that i need to exercise regularly??
regularly?? excuse me.. sekali pun xpernah... how regular is it?
erghhhhhhhh.... xnak la sampai jantung tersumbat dengan lemak.... no no no freaking way!!!
ok ok... may BE i do need those exercises.....
guhhhh!!

maybe it is time to write

erghhhh!!
i felt awful!!
rasa mcm nak curse everyone around me!!

now the hormone level not so right...
not in a very good state..
hey come on!!
i am fragile..and i can hurt.... just only with your words...

apatah lagi dengan perbuatan or ur body language!
goddamnit!!! crept!!!
rasa macam nak marah2 jek!!!
i'd never curse and i wont...
but my heart keep telling me to!!
i am bad... yes i admit that!!

but please help me to understand...
being a human in this world is not that easy...
i have to do everything to please everyone...
to see their happy faces...
but do they care about my happy face??

argghhhhhhh pergi mati laa!!
ok..i've said it..finally..
i am sorry....

now... tense is here and there
tense has arrived from a place i never know
tense..please go away.. i do not want u to be here.. i dont want u!!
i can handle this feeling.. and your presence is the last thing i ever wanted...

tambahan pula dengan exam yang akan menyusul tiba...
with all that 9 subjects yang aku tak tahu apa2!!
erghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
can i get straight As??
hahahaaa...dah macam soalan budak tadika plak...
university life~
macam la aku tak tau... hidup kat universiti nih... bukan semua orang boleh dapat A!!
ade limit2 plak nak bagi plajar A!!!

sekarang aku faham why teenagers dekat luar negara tu sanggup jual diri for an A on their result transcript!!
auzubillahimin zalik...
sungguh... dunia sekarang semakin tidak adil.....